Do you ever feel good for a while, and then that good mood you just had slowly deteriorates… And then you just kinda feel crappy?
I’ve experienced that exact feeling for the last few days now, it happens to me a lot, but I guess I’d just like to write up my feelings to try and understand it more.
A lot of negativity can stem from loneliness, something people like me experience a lot, and while I’m waiting until I have to go get a job (I have a holiday to go on first!), I spend a lot of time by myself. In the house, not really doing much.
I’ve felt so uninspired with writing and drawing lately, two of the things I love to do the most.
A lot of it stems from being lonely, but there are other things that do contribute.
Like waiting for the one person that you enjoy talking to the most to answer you, and to be given such a half-hearted response from them. For them to seem so uninterested in something you just told them that meant a lot to you.
To be waiting to hear from someone… To end up waiting all day, unsure if they’re even going to bother to talk to you.
I don’t have many friends to begin with, so when I get left in these situations I just lose all the juice I’d like to use to actually use this blog how I want to, to follow along my hobby of drawing.
But when I get in the swing, both of those things are great escapes for these bad moods. Those as well as video games, of course. The more immersive the better. I really like RPGs because they’re long and can keep you busy for a long time.
That aside though, little things can really damage your mood. Especially if you’re not really that stable emotionally and mentally to begin with, which I can safely say for myself.
I guess you just need to try your best to look at the positive sides of things sometimes, even if it feels like there’s nothing but negatives around you, there’s something positive somewhere.
It’s okay to feel down and defeated, but you just have to make sure you get back up!
So I guess I’m going to have to slack off on writing prompts and short stories for another day…
I’ll get back on track with them soon.
But for now, I guess some more rambles about my thoughts and bad moods for the last few days. Hopefully I can find myself a good distraction now.