Thinking: Depression

I’ve struggled with mental health for about as long as I can remember.

It’s hard to get out of bed sometimes. It’s hard to keep going, even with the most supportive people at your side, your head can make you feel alone and vulnerable.

I’ve been trying to make something of myself for my whole life, I just often catch myself wondering when that will pay off. When will someone give me that huge helping hand that I’ve tried to give to other people?

Of course, I’m not perfect, by any means. I’ve made some bad mistakes.

But everyone has.

Even the nicest people can hurt someone when they’ve reached their limits.

I guess I just wanted to vent a few thoughts out, because this is a problem that’s been close to my heart for so many years. As soon as I think things are improving, I just seem to fall even deeper than I ever was before.

I know it will get better.

I even know that I have great friends and family to support me…

Just in the worst of times, it truly can feel like you’re alone. I hope I can keep having fun and enjoying myself, I’ve been feeling a little bit better over the last few days.

Great coping methods are heavily revolved around my good friends, just goofing around with me for a few hours and making me smile for a bit.

I just really wonder when I my life will lift up…

I can’t get work, no one will give me the time of day.

Sorry for being a bit depressive, I just don’t really have the juices to write at the moment and this is getting something out there at least.


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